so my sweetie ni-ni (short for Venus) is sick. but the biopsy is not clearly indicating carcinoma. it isn't clearly indicating the tumor on her liver is benign. instead, it indicates that something is wrong, but it could be anything from diabetes to hepatitis to pancreatic cancer or worse. so. what to do? if she had cancer, we wouldn't do surgery, because at 13 years, we believe palliative care would be best, especially because the doctor says that if it were carcinomic(is that a word?) they couldn't guarantee the surgery would get everything.
but now, this thing could be benign. the only thing holding us back from surgery is our fear of anasthesia (sp?) on older beings. Venus is 13...and healthy. We know that older people under anasthesia run the risk of "never being the same" afterwards. This was true for my beloved's mother...and for my grandmother, I think.
we think we are going to wait and do another ultrasound in a month. if things have changed, then we may have a better idea that it is cancer. if things haven't changed, we might do the surgery.
but now I am thinking...maybe we should schedule the surgery and take the chance.
she is so happy and lively and sweet and good and dear...we just want her to have the best life ever.