so. sigh. today, it is Sunday. we should go to church. I want to go to church. I am scared to go to church, I long to go to church, but...... So. Today. I pray. That our house sells. That I find something goodly temporary until the dream thing opens up. That I can stay balanced. That I can trust You. Please. I am very needy right now, I know, and I need to pull out of that. I am grateful...for this home, for my family, for my health, for my abundance. I want to learn to relish in what I have...spiritually, physically, and mentally....and not worry so much about what I don't have. Breathe. Open. Listen. Awareness. Attentiveness. Amen. amen. Amen.